don't eat at the table where people bragging about feeding you.

I am an introvert asshole. I don't like loitering. or in Malaysian term, we call it 'lepak'. I want you to know, I am that person that chooses who am i going to lepak with. I fucking choose the boys I wanna hang out with. it is not for the sake of seeing people to my level but their attitude mirrors what they are. and the sad thing is we think we can control them fuck no hahaha.

I had my friend or my was-a-friend who really sensitive about who is better. he a rich kid but I won't choose friends based on they have it sucks. if it's for work then it's fine. but he chooses me because I have something he doesn't. this time I got leverage I thought to myself. but when I got there he still treats me like shit to make himself feel better. 

that is fucked up. 

I am not that kinda guy who dwells on his past but man I don't ever wanna see him again. People tell me stuff about him, at first I didn't believe it coz it is a one-sided story. so I when to see him and lepak with him. we took some weed together and things just suck from the get-go. 

the thing about being his friend, he always reminds people what he did for them. I'm not talking about money here, yeah he a rich kid, but he's cheap as fuck. not because he doesn't have a job. dude, he buys weed more than he buys food. money is not a problem for him. he always brags about being the best provider in among his friends. including when he was with me. 

I'm grateful as fuck but damn his attitude on bragging is just suck. 

guys, if you really care, you won't even remember what you did for them. facts. but really there always gonna be limitations where you cant do something for someone. things you cannot control. his sensitivity, his ego, his attitude I can't control em. if I have to be a hypocrite to one of my best friends, I would do it not to just protect me but to protect him too. but damn there always gonna be limitations.