ada hari aku rasa macam sesuatu yang tak betul pasal diri aku.

ada hari aku rasa yang aku tak ada apa diperlukan untuk lancarkan hari aku.

ada hari aku rasa as if, satu dunia melawan kehendak aku.

ada hari aku rasa semua orang akan target aku.

is this the right thought to even think about? i mean, we produce over 60000 thoughts a day. only 10000 of em are positives. Others well..., not even worth to think about. but its there. we just tend to ignore it coz we trained to. This world is too cruel for someone to even realize that there's only good thoughts.

How do successful people do this? It is the toughest task ever being patience. it sucks to have adhere to all the mocks and betrays and still keep going. coz i tell u man, its gonna keep coming no matter where u are, when u are.

but.. to think that this stuff exist just to ruins our life, it seems unlogic. it seems that everyone who succeed actually can't. thats kinda insulting even for me. i think i need to feel this uneasy to survive.. i think i need this feelings because it gives hope and something to hold on to. 

the pain, the suffer, the betrays are all succumb to one result. Success.

but..

we're humans. It takes years to realize we are actually ungrateful.